N o  s t al gia    for where you've 

been is   sometimes 

  more bearable 

than the  n o s talgia   for where you 

  have n e  v e r
     gone.

Without music life would be a mistake.  ~Friedrich Wilhelm Nietzsche

Music doesn't lie. If there is something to be changed in this world, then it can only happen through music.
Jimi Hendrix

A painter paints pictures on canvas.  But musicians paint their pictures on silence.  ~Leopold Stokowski

If a composer could say what he had to say in words he would not bother trying to say it in music.Gustav Mahler

I was born with music inside me. Music was one of my parts. Like my ribs, my kidneys, my liver, my heart. Like my blood. It was a force already within me when I arrived on the scene. It was a necessity for me-like food or water.

Ray Charles

For me, singing sad songs often has a way of healing a situation. It gets the hurt out in the open into the light, out of the darkness.Reba McEntire

 Music is a moral law. It gives soul to the universe, wings to the mind, flight to the imagination, and charm and gaiety to life and to everything.

Plato

Add caption

 Music is my religion. 

Jimi Hendrix 

A Few Things To Think About...

"I like to see    p e o p l e reunited,
 I like to see p e o p l e run to each other, I    like the kissing and the crying, I like the 
impatience, the stories that the mouth cannot tell fast enough,          the ears that aren't  b i g enough, the eyes     that can't take in all of the  c ha n g e, I like the hugging,         the bringing together, the end of missing someone."

As you're reading this, your life's getting shorter. It's ticking away. I'm not saying this to frighten you. Or even scare you. Though it may. I'm saying this to awaken you. To inspire you. To rise you out of your deep slumber. To really know you won't live forever. To share your unique gifts. To ignite your inner fire. To ignite your greater strength. To ignite your great inner light. To shine. Brightly shine. To awaken your great inner beauty. To motivate. Yourself and others. To love. Yourself and others. To paint. To write. To teach. To innovate. To sing. To dance. To care. To feel. To listen. To learn. To laugh. The clock's ticking. The world needs you. Make your move.

If you end up with a boring miserable life because you listened to your mum, your dad, your teacher, your priest, or some guy on television tell you how to do your shit, then, well frankly, you deserve it. 

2010

It has been the best and most bittersweet year of my life thus far. Sometimes you find yourself in a moment of absolute contentment, where you look at the puzzle of your life and are in awe of how these pieces are falling beautifully together. All of a sudden a gust of wind comes and blows the puzzle with all its valuable pieces all over the floor and as you look down you notice that your once almost completed puzzle is not so close to completion. You start to understand and accept that sometimes some doors close so that others may open. Or is that just the positive way to look at it?

Having spent some of the best times of my life abroad and especially in the UK did I soon realise that my UK visa was expiring and that my flight home was on the horizon. This was a sharp note and reality kicked in and now I needed a plan.  The University letter arrives, accepted, life puzzle fitting nicely, again. Life cannot be better. Returned home, work visa expired, not going for long, empty bag, fly home. Home. Visa rules change, defer my return, Australia to kill time. Thailand, Laos, life is amazing, what can go wrong? Cambodia, reality is harsh. University too expensive, decline the offer, I am lost. Returned home, stoked on life after an amazing travel through Australia, Thailand, Laos and Cambodia but yet, still so confused and lost. That gust of wind has come and blown my puzzle away.

Some things fall apart, so that better things can fall into place.

One day. One week. Two weeks gone. Still in Cambodia. Three weeks gone. Home. Four weeks and I am still waiting on something better to fall into place. Seven weeks gone, still nothing.

Life is falling apart, not motion, and stuck in that rut.

How much do I love it when reality comes around? Its harsh but in its own way can be beautiful. I find myself here at my table wondering, looking over the last few months of my life and soon I start to realise how majestic it has been. I sit down to think. My heart sinks and life is down.  How foolish and ignorant can I be to not notice and over look what has been going on in my life? All this time I have sat waiting, searching for something better to come my way instead of knowing how breath taking my life has been. How can I complain that nothing is happening?

I got to travel more countries, witnessed friends getting married, being there for a friend who had a beautiful daughter, spent many years of lost time with my dad, made new friends and repaired broken friendships, spent time with the family and caught up with lost friends. How can I look over this and say the last few months I have just been killing time for something better to pitch up on my doorstep.

How did I get so selfish and ignorant to not notice these moments? I am not saying that I am not upset about returning to the UK. I think about it often and do wonder how different my life would turn out to be.

What I am trying to say is that I want to be a part of the beauty of what is happening in my life right now, to treasure every moment and to not let such special moment slip through my fingers. To no longer worry about the future and let it worry for itself. If those doors that have been closed so that others may open, let it be. 

Let it be.

But for now I am free falling and soon my puzzle will be beautifully completed.

New Blog

Hi there,

Just to let you know, that there will be a new blog of mine coming out, just on photos from my travels. It should be pretty sweet, working on it, will let you know when the new one comes around....

laters

Change

Throughout life everything and everyone is constantly changing around you.
You change. Your friends change. Your school changes. Your home changes. Your family changes. 
Things come and go.. before your very eyes
Eyes filled with constant motion 
Stop and gaze
Stop to notice all thats going around them
Gaze at all the change thats happened
In the blink of an eye all that you once knew
Is gone.
Your in a different world
You find out what you truly care about
Thats when you discover something new.
You discover whats most at stake.
You want the change to stop.
The walls begin to cave in.
Tearing apart you and all that you know.
In an instant everything changes.
Leaving the past behind, speeding toward the unknown.
Unknown place, the future.
You begin to lose yourself.
Lose yourself in your very world. 
Change. Changes. Everything. 

[Untitled]

A long road of confusion
Tired eyes, failing sight
Where is the way?
How will I walk it?

Listen to my heart
It still cries for my past
It is torn, spraying signs
With its aortic obfuscation

Look for my soul
It lays somewhere in the stars
Waiting, hoping
One day I will be ready to call it home

My legs are weak
Floundering under false weight
Burdens I carry
Crushing me

I pray my arms become wings
Lifting me into the light
Taking me where I fear to go
Into the future